Forever your eyes will hold the memory I saw your heart as it overtook me [entries|friends|calendar] Brantley [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

fuck me. [Monday August 22nd, 2005] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | When Everything Falls-Haste The Day ] school is gay weekend was alright. yeah i love sex so what even though it's been sense march i've had me some.... shit fuck. 3 sinking under

fuck. [Sunday August 21st, 2005] [ mood | content ] [ music | darkest hour ] new lj add it xasyoudiex 0 sinking under

a non typical saturday night... [Sunday August 21st, 2005] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | silverstein dvd ] so started off by me and kyle walking to burger king where we met up with stephanie and caty then we went to block busters then walked almost to kyles then kathleen picked us up it was me,kyle,stephanie,caty,alyssa,kathleen,and micheal all in one car and it was so crowded it was amazing how we were sitting i was sitten on kyles lap the whole time then went to denny's me stori and sam there with bunch of people it was so crowded saw tanya later on that night also landen thenwe sat there went to the store i got yoohoos then waited more saw auri and eli then wated more dan picked us up went to a party kyle got drunk so funny i had a good buzz nothen special saw hott chicks makeout hardcore style people were about to fight fraiser came and picked us up dropped us all at my house kyle left like an hour ago alyssa and stephanie left a few mins ago i am fucken tired i just want to sleep now it was an ok day i guess but it kind of sucks being alone and shit i don't know im getting kinda emo and shit... 9 sinking under

And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter... [Saturday August 20th, 2005] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | My Heroine-Silverstein ] The drugs begin to peak A smile of joy arrives in me But sedation changes to panic and nausea And breath starts to shorten And heartbeats feel softer You won't try to save me You just want to break me Your leaving this way You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had. I can't forget, the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth How do you do it? Your my heroine You won't leave me alone Tears of my heart turn to stone You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had I can't forget, the times that I was lost and depressed from the awful truth How do you do it? Your my heroine I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself. I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else. Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes so real. But under your covers more torture than pleasure And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter Not now or forever will I ever change you I know that to go on, I'll break you, my habit You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had. I can't forget, the times when I was lost and depressed from the awful truth How do you do it? Your my heroine I will save myself 4 sinking under

im kinda feeling sickish???? [Saturday August 20th, 2005] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Matchbook Romance ] tonight was not as planned hungout with Dan,Josie,Anthony,and Kyle stayed at kyles for a few Colton,Ally,and Seth showed up then left us 4 waited for anthony went to ormand i wanted to go check the oakhill party but from what i heard it was shitty with hicks and beer ran out idk anyways went to oramnd smoked a small blunt meh it was alright went to oceanwalk sat on the beach... i accidently called someone tonight i didn't want to call it's hard to get oversomeone when all you do is think about them constantly you just don't show it and hide it it is probably the worst feeling i just can't help but still care about her that makes me so weak im pathetic... also went to seabreeze tonight great time cause i spent it with all my old buddies that i have missed Tyler,Mike,Heather,Kendall,Joey,Tattoo Mike,Vinnie,and Laila i had a goodtime seeing them all and hanging with them again Kyle is drunk and he is funny when he drinks probably the best drunk ever haha josie is spending the night my mom still isn't back and it's like 5 am wtf oh well yager tomorrow!<3 10 sinking under

I See The Sunrise in her eyes.... [Thursday August 18th, 2005] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | With A Thousand Words To Say But One-Darkest Hour ] holy shit smoken some chronic in a little bit<3 Joe Wilson burned me one of the gayest cds ever but the rap one i do like<3 blueberry yum yum mo fucka! so i might try out for a band called lets die trying either screaming or they got this shitty drumset but they said i could have it and fix it and shit so of course i guess im gonna say yes oh wells i don't know these kids chad knows them though oh well we will see what happens there???? so i started skating again yesturday... PARTY TOMORROW IN ORMAND ALSO PARTY SATURDAY IN OAK HILL HELL YES! i bought some moonshine an hour ago hehehe drinking tonight hheheheheheheheheh FUCK STRAIGHT EDGE nothen kills me so i will continue to get fucked up and never quit... dude im getting a tattoo on wend. im happy fucken siverstein cd i need it! goddamnit can't wait for the Against Me show might be getting a car soon to drive to school and shit 2 sinking under

DICK. [Thursday August 18th, 2005] [ mood | horny ] [ music | The Worst Is Yet To Come-Still Remains ] bullshit fuck school im gay.......... i want me some sex. 2 sinking under

yeah of course my dick is a good looken size... [Wednesday August 17th, 2005] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | 18 Visions ] dude check this lj post im doing it is going to be so bi-polar and scitzo no it wont shut the fuck up dude don't tell me to shut the fuck up dude i just did fuck you go in your tower bitch dude fuck you go eat toast fuck man why the fuck we always gotta fight dude chill out i love you no you don't dude shutup dude fuck you no FUCK YOU! ok i love you ok i love you too<3 dude im fucken strange..... but atleast i got a good looken penis!<3<3<3 7 sinking under

be-bop [Wednesday August 17th, 2005] [ mood | content ] [ music | Everytime I Die ] yeah halfday was ok i need to go get that damn silverstein cd! i need me some sex. also stop talken to me about her people im done with it i don't wanna hear it anymore! were not going out were not friends that's that i don't want anyone else coming up to me asking about it it drives me crazy! ok thank you so yeah joe wilson is gonna hangout with me on friday should be rad. anyone else wanna hang cause im getting some good shit this weekend yup sure am im excited about that! 0 sinking under

and now my only hope is to take back what you've stolen... [Tuesday August 16th, 2005] [ mood | GOOD. ] [ music | My Darkest Hour-Scary Kids Scaring Kids ] so fucken school was school... haha i got 6 notes today from 3 10th grade gals 2 9th graders and someone that's in one of my classes sayen some shit like im the hottest guy at the the school and that they want to get to know me alot more and one of them saying they take pics of me at school without me knowing so im kinda freaked out about that it's pretty funny i also got a note from JOE FUCKEN WILSON TODAY! she is fucken awesome i'll write you back Joe<3 so there are currentley 2 gals i like at this school of mine hmmm....who knows????? fucken my ticket is paid off!!!! im happy Silverstein's new cd is out i want to go get it right the fuck now!!!! someone take me to K-MART! As I Lay Dying concert soon! ahh fucken radical! fucken the word radical is so fucken rad i think i'll start saying it radical fuck yeah! everything is so much fucken better fucken life is so great getten crunk this weekend with my pills hahaha hell yes! i'm trying to find what's missing form my life and the tables have turned this life is only temporary fucken scary kids scaring kids are fucken great... 9 sinking under

what the fuck... [Tuesday August 16th, 2005] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Scary Kids Scaring Kids ] fucken school bullshit... dude it took me fucken an hour and a half to masturebate last night i was pissed. 4 sinking under

Everyone loves a fucking tragedy in epic proportions.... [Monday August 15th, 2005] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | You Know Who's Seatbelt-The Bled ] so im going back to school tomorrow i suppose um yeah... and i can't wait to move i'll be able to be in 12th grade in 2 months and everything so im excited about that i guess my ticket wont get payed cause i don't have the amount of money i need 94 bucs yet due tomorrow so now im gonna have to pay 50 plus the amount to get my id back which sucks oh well... when i move im getting a new car! that's gonna be the shit i can't wait i hate this fucken town Lets set our hearts at self-destruct. Like scarlet drips on a white tile floor. A cardiac metronome. We'll scrape the guardrail from our teeth and start again. There's a flood in the infirmary where we'll swim through broken glass. Our prosthetic limbs will keep us afloat. Lets set our hearts at self-destruct.... 0 sinking under

Paranoia and you can still pretend How this cross will always mend... [Sunday August 14th, 2005] [ music | How The Beautiful Decay-Darkest Hour ] ITDIESTODAY222: dude Murderer Dance X: dude ITDIESTODAY222: i just jacked off on milfhunter.com Murderer Dance X: yes! Murderer Dance X: my fav site Murderer Dance X: dude Murderer Dance X: we are twins...... Murderer Dance X: omg Murderer Dance X: i just jacked off 30 mins ago to a video by the milf hunter i downloaded Paranoid and the pestilence sets in What failure looks like when you begin 'Cause you've heard this one before And it won't stop you from walking out that door Wasted on nothing but borrowed time Wasted on the guilt that's all mine This is how the beautiful decay And the pain washes the color away How the wicked find their separate ways How you'll look on that day I promise no surprises Last time I lost myself I promise no surprises 3 sinking under

blah. [Sunday August 14th, 2005] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Silverstein ] so friday was a good day went to chaz's party got pretty messed up loved it saturday hung with josie,kehoe,anthony,dan,ethan,colton,sexberry,stephanie,and kyle fun times got drunk in ormand smoked a big fucken blunt in ormand! came home around 6 am kehoe,josie,dan,ethan,and anthony spent the night im moving in a month! so fucken happy!!!! i like a couple of people and i think i got a pretty good shot! so im happy about that all and all great weekend still going on for me i got 2 more days to pay ticket im fucked but oh well it's cool i guess not really but oh well fucken weekend is the best! 8 sinking under

I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you... [Friday August 12th, 2005] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Promise-Matchbook Romance ] so i got home pretty early today im in edgewater maybe for the night anthony stopped by a little bit ago then he went to go pick up chris and shit so i don't know where im going to go tonight but my mom doesn't know im home so if she finds out im fucked saturday should be cool i hope your not mad at me if you are im sorry for whatever i did i miss you<3 And now the stars aren't out tonight, But neither are we to look up at them Why does hello feel like goodbye? These memories can't replace, These wishes I wished and dreams I chased Take this broken heart and make it right 3 sinking under

psssh your crazy man but i still love you... [Thursday August 11th, 2005] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Unholy Confessions-A7X ] so um yeah got some stuff packed going back to oralndo here in a few mins IOA with chad and his mom tomorrow that fucken family loves me it's like my 2nd home just wish it wasn't far away um then around 2 maybe 3 im coming back here to hang with christina and such i don't know call if you want to hangout i'll be down here maybe for the night tomorrow saturday just might be fun and crazy ormand here i come! fuck i love my friends don't know what i would do without them! 2 sinking under

And now I live And now there's hope... [Thursday August 11th, 2005] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | Concerning The Way It Was-Haste The Day ] Wet n Wild today with Chad fun as hell i met a cool girl named Alexis and she was fucken awesome as hell we hungout there for about 3 hours we almost got kicked out i went down like every water slide haha it was fun even when chad went nude on one haha so im moving up to Orlando all weekend pretty cool going back to my house today to pick up the rest of my shit monday is when i decide if i want to move out for good or just stay here in gay edgewater idk i'll think hard shit i got sun burned like a fucker my ticket is due tuesday ahhh!!! im gonna die if i don't get money some people help me out PLEASE! The shadow cast upon me Eyes sewn shut with the wires Lies bound by the lies that pierce my skin Heart as cold as winter Although there is no season In this place of loneliness 7 sinking under

FUCK NSB [Thursday August 11th, 2005] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | A Bullet For My Valentine ] me and chad are going to Wet n Wild fuck i got kicked out for awhile i guess i gotta go home today to fucken get more shit but i might spend the night there idk yet i wish i was 21 that would be cool. fuck life it's a bitch. 0 sinking under

bitch nigger....fuck in the ass what the fuck? [Thursday August 11th, 2005] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | As I Lay Dying ] so im at chads for the day well i was here last night to so i did get kicked out which kinda blows oh well ummm ticket money is due tuesday wow im in some shit thanks to dan he is giving me 20 bucs i love that kid<3 that helps a little not so much now fuck fighting at school you never get out of it even if it's the fucken 3rd day of school! speaking of school i think im just about done with that shit i can't stand it so far it's just been gay i went to the hospital last night chad took me ummm my hand was like dislocated so he popped it back in place so i guess it wasn't broken like the fingers were all out of place and the hand it's self i guess i kinda broke a bone? i don't know that's what the doctor said i can move my fingers but not my hand like bend it i don't know but it fucken hurts he gave me pain killers for it but knowing me i'll be done with that bottle in 2-3 days hahaha fuck im done. 6 sinking under

fuck that shit.... [Wednesday August 10th, 2005] [ mood | high ] [ music | Rise Against ] got in a fight suspended for 3 days i broke my hand by laying on it im pissed fuck this as if my life wasn't bad enough im getting kicked out atleast she could do is to drive me to the hospital for my hand fuck it i guess im leaving florida tonight? might comeback tuesday or never don't know where i will end up don't talk shit cause most of you wern't there and half said i kicked his ass we both didn't win but i did get the better hits you don't see any part of me bleeding or brusis so yeah fuck off if you just want to talk shit guess all that's left is to get fucken trashed im stoned right now this is always good... eh? 12 sinking under

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